a new leaf

It's another beginning. From sec school, probably to college, or to another secondary school for sixth form, or whatever. Never thought that time would have passed by so quickly. Never thought that I would have to leave so quickly. Never thought that 5 years would be so short.

Saint Co has indeed, and will always be, my second home. In any way, I would say. I used to dread school, and I always dreaded club meetings, work, or anything that was related to the school. Not because I hated school, but rather being clueness towards the way that I should have looked at things. I should have opened my eyes wider, yes? This very unique mission school has also made me break down mentally or physically many many times. I always wanted to leave quicker, but I knew that right after I leave, I would start missing every single thing that happened there. How unusual.

I can't wait to face a new challenge in life, but at the same time, I am thinking a lot about the past. I could have done more. I could have chosen not to make a change. I could have chosen the path that everyone preferred me to take. But of all costs, I didn't. I failed as a leader that everyone would like to look up to, in some ways. And if you ask me why is that so, I would say that there are too many things that I should not have done, and those that I should have changed.

Being a leader was painful. Hard, yes. Painful, a  bigger YES. However.
Despite how painful everything was, I am still very grateful for the opportunity, and everything. To all the people that I have let down, I am deeply sorry. I seek your forgiveness. To those who were the ones that made me cry and laugh, whether you were the one that I am scared to face because of what you've done behind me, a big thank you, for the support. I know how hard the things were in the past few months.

But you guys made it really special for me. Again, hard, yes. Painful, a bigger yes. Memorable, a bigger bigger YES. Through the conversations, mails, cards, notes, letters, text messages and everything, you all made me realize that no one is perfect. That I could do better. That God is always, always, always with me.

Gomawo :)